Post by Polaris on Jul 10, 2006 20:19:42 GMT -5
Scott pulled up to the shore of Alkali lake and turned off the motorcycle, waiting for Jean to hop off then got off himself. There was so much he had wanted to say. So many things to apologize for, but he had no idea where to start. It was such a mess that he had created, but how was he going to fix it all. He was just so sorry that it took him so long to realize what an idiot he was being. Scott watched Jean as she walked closer to the water.
"I know you're sorry, Scott," she said softly. "I know you didn't mean to hurt me. It's just how you are. You have your insecurities and I understand that. I just don't understand why you couldn't let me in. I won't hurt you, I could never hurt you." Jean didn't mean to intrude on his thoughts, but with Scott it had always been something she had no control over. Scott walked to her and stood in front of her.
"I wanted to call you everyday. I wanted nothing more then to move with you, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to trust you that much. I am so in love with you, but I couldn't let myself completely go around you. I'm ready to know, though. These three years were so hard, I even quit the X-Men. I don't want to go anymore time without you in my life." Scott grabbed Jean's hands and looked her right in the eyes. He begged her with his words, his mind, and his heart. He knew she could feel it all.
"Scott, I have always loved you, but I need time. I need to be able to see that it's different this time. We need to take things slow and work on it, together." Jean slipped her hands out of Scott's and went up to his glasses. "I need you to trust me," she whispered.
"No, Jean," Scott said, pausing her hands. I can control it Scott, trust me, Scott heard Jean whisper in his mind. She reached up and pulled off his glasses, finding his eyes shut. Trust me, she said again. Scott slowly opened his eyes and Jean pushed his ray back into his eyes. Jean smiled, gave Scott a quick kiss, and replaced his glasses.
"Thank you," she said, walking back to the water's edge with Scott close behind.
"I know you're sorry, Scott," she said softly. "I know you didn't mean to hurt me. It's just how you are. You have your insecurities and I understand that. I just don't understand why you couldn't let me in. I won't hurt you, I could never hurt you." Jean didn't mean to intrude on his thoughts, but with Scott it had always been something she had no control over. Scott walked to her and stood in front of her.
"I wanted to call you everyday. I wanted nothing more then to move with you, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to trust you that much. I am so in love with you, but I couldn't let myself completely go around you. I'm ready to know, though. These three years were so hard, I even quit the X-Men. I don't want to go anymore time without you in my life." Scott grabbed Jean's hands and looked her right in the eyes. He begged her with his words, his mind, and his heart. He knew she could feel it all.
"Scott, I have always loved you, but I need time. I need to be able to see that it's different this time. We need to take things slow and work on it, together." Jean slipped her hands out of Scott's and went up to his glasses. "I need you to trust me," she whispered.
"No, Jean," Scott said, pausing her hands. I can control it Scott, trust me, Scott heard Jean whisper in his mind. She reached up and pulled off his glasses, finding his eyes shut. Trust me, she said again. Scott slowly opened his eyes and Jean pushed his ray back into his eyes. Jean smiled, gave Scott a quick kiss, and replaced his glasses.
"Thank you," she said, walking back to the water's edge with Scott close behind.